There’s no way I am

One line, one life

Wait

The second line appears in the sunlight

 

I am, I am, I am

Two lines, two lives

Growing,

A body expanding- plum to pumpkin

Finally ready to love

Wait

 

I have to tell my mother

Two lives on the line

Hearts connected and beating slowly

Finally ready to feel something

Wait

 

What is that?

A woman, the epitome of pain

I wrap my hands around my stomach,

I whisper goodbye,

Staring at the peeled skin under my nails,

And the blood on the tiles

 

Is it possible to feel loss

Without first having gained?

To fail at your only job,

To want to scream with no one to scream at?

 

Goodbye, little one

I’m not, I am,

I am not a mother